haunted house head

TW // suicide, sh, addiction, etc etc etc

i tried to kill myself in 2019; no one noticed.

i started cutting myself every day in 2020 and didn’t stop for years; no one noticed.

i dated a man who was 32 when i met him and 22 when i was born; no one noticed.

i was abused for a year and a half by a friend; no one noticed.

it happened again for another year with another friend; no one noticed.

i got hooked on benzos for a couple months; no one noticed.

i tried to kill myself again in 2024; no one noticed.

i relapsed a couple days ago, my hips are still bloody; no one noticed.

i flinch whenever people touch me because the only times people have ever touched me was to hurt me; nobody notices.

i stopped answering when people ask me how i am; nobody notices.

i know ghosts are real because i’m one of them.

• jan 14